This was a tough one to write because it exposes the rottenness of my heart.
But here goes . . .
I spoke to a friend of mine yesterday. We were in a meeting when he whispered to me that he had great news.
Excited to hear what it was, he told me that God blessed him with a new car – a Toyota Fortuner. It was a straight trade with his Toyota Vios.
‘But I’ve been wanting one! You can’t have one before me! Here am I stuck with my clunky Crosswind. What in the?’ I didn’t say it but I heard these in my thoughts loud and clear.
(Sidenote: This is not “parinig” for that will take the rottenness of my heart to a sorry and extreme levels.)
I had to go to God and repent. Moreso, this is one of my best friends. I need to be sincerely happy for him. After realizing my folly and going to God, I now am genuinely and absolutely happy for my friend… seriously.
That’s how much we need transforming grace of God from day to day. So glad He’s in my life and loves me too much not to let me stay the way I am.
“”The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?” (Jeremiah 17:9, NLT)